when life hands you lemons …… you are spose to make lemonade right?

What if you are not very fond of lemonade..haha…then what?

Too often than not there seems to be an abundance of hurdles in each persons life. Very different of course for each human, but still I feel some of all the same underlining issues. Everyone wants to feel cared for, nurtured,valued, important,strong,safe,fearless,physically healthy, but most of all overwhelmingly loved.
We all go in search of this, and when we dont achive some of these we feel…..? like failures? unsatified..fullfilled? People say you must love yourself before you love others. But is that true? For love to exist in the first place dont you just have to have a open warming heart for another..See their falts and look past them to the greater overallness of them. What does that have to do with you personally. I would like to believe people can love and truely mean it dispite thier dislike for themselves. I know many around me that underneith it all do not really truely care for themsevles. But I do believe with my WHOLE heart that they do love me. And… I love them back, for those same falts they hate of themsevles.
So back to lemonade… if you dont like it, do you just throw away the lemons, or do you use them simply for somethign else in a diff manner. Maybe as decor, or to flavor a fish, make salad dressing? Or even lemon cupcakes!:D….
So whose to say if you do not truely love youself(lemonade) that you wont find a way to make use of yourself in an area that you do love (cupcakes) for others to love. Is this how the world really works and how love does as well? We all just find a way to find a nitch and someone who loves us for that nitch? Thus making each hurdle we then soon there after run across a little easier to deal with bit by bit? Do we keep finding new little nitches about ourselves growing in numbers of people who love us for each little one till the very end, till we pass away.
I dunno, I really dont know what Im takling about. I am just rambling as thoughts come to my head. And ironically and silly as this is, is that one of you will read this and say so perfectly… I love her for this. And thank you! For this is my days nitch maybe my weeks nitch. One that I think while typing is simply lemonade, but you think it is my lemon cupcake coming to life.
I hope you all are doing well and finding ways to use your lemons. I am struggle/guggling(like a clown haha ) a few of mine but knowing/feeling the love that I know exists from others makes these hurdles just a bit less difficult. Thank you.

LOve always,
xoxoxoxo
tessie

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Is vunerability a good quality or bad?
Do you think it is always best to put your feelings and yourself out there?
I mean what if they are unjusified feelings? Where do you draw the line as a person in determining when the best time to speak them is, OR if at all? Too often I feel everyone goes through this push pull fight with in them. When the best time it is to speak it to a friend, family member, or lover. Which then brings us to even the people who dont wish to play a game or any games with relationships , always end up doing. Because in essence holding back it all is playing a game the game of timing… the game of hiding from ….hurt? dissapointment?or anger? hahaha oh well
give me your thoughts on all this too
xoxoxox,
tessie

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 As you guys know I have been working int he bakery for about 2 weeks now ! It has made my days busy busy …but.. fun!My favorite at the shop is our strawberry.I am sure I will switch it up and like something else later on.( I mean  I like them all but fav wise) Other than that I have been going through some family stuff as well, with my dad ,etc.

I hope everyone has been doing well, It is almost spring break for alot of people then soon summer again! YIPPPEEE

Does anyone have anything super fun and exciting planned for spring break or summer? A part of me wants to travel somewhere for fun and another part of me just wants to stay home.I keep going back and forth and cant seem to make up my mind :/. Maybe some of your extravagant trips will perswade me?:)

 So for those of you have have seen me the last two days know the surprise I have:d for the others I guess that means you have to come talk to me:)! right?!?! cough cough TIM! hahaha

Anywho I know this was a short one, jsut wanted to make sure u guys knew I was still alive ! better ones to come

xoxoxox

tessie

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So I will be doing on my third day of baknig at my new job tomorrow !

What a night consists of :

  Going in checking how yesterdays sales were and basing quantities off that then baking 6x, 3x ,4x, etc (6x= 6 times one single batch) for the amount we want to bake off!  Throwing a few in the mixers and get going .While we bake we stand and chat our little hearts off about our life, who we are, interests ,singing country,etc. After all we are just getting to know eachother and will be spending alot of time in the bakery doing things and brain storming together. We get along great and she is a super sweet mother of two that is very down to earth!Luckily for her a load is off her shoulders with training that she doesnt have to explain much to me just show or tell me what order she wants/prefers things and just sends me off to do them!

I cant really describe the feeling I get when I do all this stuff. For what may seem annoying, stressful, and confusing to others. I find this euphoric high that puts me on cloud 9.My brain lauches into a zone and space that blocks everything else out and just concentrates on the task at hand. ( Yes I can chat and bake tho multi tasking at its finest haha j/p). But baking and formulas (aka recipes) become second nature and a habit , you go on auto piolit. The concentration comes in with decorating, and not the simple pipping on the cupcakes but all the decorations that go into a cake,like fondant and gum paste work.That is when my multi tasking is hindered and I become soo focused that to chat with someone I have to stop what I am doing and pick it up later.

So as the weeks go back I will add up more and more stories to talk to you guys about. Also come back with other  feeling ,thoughts, and contraversal topic all us adies in the bakery chat about.

miss you guys

xoxoxo,

Tessie

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So I start my new job tomorrow and as it turns out its evening bakes for three hours. So I alternate tues,thurs 5- 8pm  and weds-fri 7-10pm pst of course ! *** side note so TTT will be on at 9pm pst-10pm, sorry about this boys it is ONLY for this one week and then goes back tot he regular time***

So this week I get to to learn all the formulas for the  cupcakes! Last sat when I was in for my face to face interview I helped out a little after working ! And she told me to try their red velvet cold from the fridge! OMG —- I usually have my cupckes warms but this one was to die for! You all should try it! The cream cheese frosting cold its perfect and its a  yummy snack .

Aww but after this week of evening baking I go to mornings which will love but, my poor baby boy wont have someone with him during the days like he is use to. I hope he doesn’t start creating messes hehehe ad become a little trouble maker.

So I wanted to ask you guys what would be your favorite flavor cupcake, and remember no holds bar with cupcakes u can make any flavor cake, filling , buttercream flavors,etc so go wild with this

 muuuahh  I look forward to filling you in with more fun stories and yummy treats

xoxoxox,

Tessie

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 A rambaling woman—-    

      Sometimes I really do not understand people or things. I do try, or as much as I can. But I can’t understand contradictions. I mean a contradiction in itself is a statement one way and then a statement in the opposing way right?How can you pull someone’s brain in two opposite directions. It is like the chesier cat in alice when he says ” she went that way” and points both ways (opposite like this <…>) and she just stands there with a look of confusion.Now I am not going to lie even I have contracted myself …many times infact.But for some reasons that of which I dont know, I can understand my own contradictions, but never others. It jsut gets so frustrating sometimes. Do you guys ever know this feeling? Any solutions on your end? Or do you jsut give up trying to understand and just not care? Because if I take the person literally( which I often do, not reading into bull shit feelings or hidden messages) then the contradiction just drives me even more insane.

Anyways moving on

You know those little things that you think shouldn’t hurt you .. but do. Why is that?Is it cause we never thgouht they would actually bother us and they do? Or do they tap some kinda feeling that we never thought was there or felt from that situation before? what kinda things upset you that you didnt think would?I know for me I am striat out there with things that bother me.But then I find myself VERY hidden and guarded with others. Not mentioning them what so ever to anyone, or the faulty party that did the hurting of my feelings. Why do u express some things and hide the rest? Do you do that too?

next topic shall we…….. jsut walk right through this door ….:D

Maintaining a little mystery? So I want to know a guys take on  a girl being TOO open. What are you limits, like bruping, peeing, shaving, dressing, and other those other random habits EVERYONE has when they are alone.And not only seeing them but her talknig bout them or her confessing to some? Whats ok to you . Or after how long is it ok ? I know it took like about 1 year and 4 months before I even let my bf, at the time and who I was living with, even open the dorr and come into the bathroom when I was in it. Even then after 2 years I still kept closing the door no matter what.He would bug me about that. But it was my comfort level.

ok last one …….

Whats ur shy-o-meter? how outgoing or shy do you consider yourself. What situations would make u less shy or more shy?Do you find it something that is very challenging for yourself?whats is a situation that you found yourself in where you didnt think you would be as shy as you were?I would consider myself outgoing but with a LARGE BUBBLE. hehehe some of you knwo this and have hear stories and Kat knows it first hand since she protects me as well! Somethign she is awesome at. hahaha But I am jsut curious as to how else everyone is xoxoxoxo,Tessie

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 after being up since 4am . i came across this ..

hilarious!!!

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